It has been a long time since I have posted a blog. I have been beating myself up over this because I want to use this as a journal and someday give it to my kids. The last months have been crazy. We moved from Washington to California, and then California to Texas. Now I am getting ready to move from Texas back to Washington. Tad got stationed at Ft Hood Texas. He is going to be deploying for the third time to Iraq sometime around Feb. I have decided that is is best for my children and I to pack up yet again, and move to be around, and have the support of family while he is gone. He will be gone at least a year. Texas is interesting. It is such a big state that there is quite a bit to do here. I will post mini blogs with some pictures of the adventures we have had here. It is a lot better than California I will say.

My kids are growing like weeds. The other day I got so emotional realizing how fast they are growing up. It seems like yesterday that we just found out we were pregnant with Madelyne our first and she is now 2 1/2. I wish I had more time with them while they are so little. I am just gratefull Heavenly Father blessed me with such amazing little spirits.

Madelyne is 2 1/2. She is doing so good. She says quite a bit of words now and starting to finally say sentances. She is in gymnastics here at the Texas Tumblers. She does so well in it I want her to really pursue it. Her teacher is amazed at her strenght as well as I. She is such a active little girl, everyday she amazes me with something new.



Garrison is 8 mo now CRAZY!! He just started sorta crawling this week. He pulls himself around. I have decided to not really baby proof though because we wil be moving soon. He is also I think teething. He has been quite fussy lately, and getting up quite a bit at night. He is known though for always being very giggily and smiling. He is such a joy.







Tad and I are doing good. He has been very busy at work getting everything ready to go to Iraq. I have been busy chasing my kiddos around. I was also recently called to be in the primary presidency so that has also kept me a little busy. We are heading to Yakima this Sat for three weeks. I am so excited we were just there a few weeks ago for Thanksgiving, but I get so excited everytime we go. I am also going to find a house when I am there.

Family photos

So my friend Carrie who is a photographer came over and took some pics of us and our new addition. She is very professional and has taken pictures of us a few times. I was very happy with the shots she was able to capture of my precious family.

The prince has arrived

On April 12th at 9:21 am we were blessed with Garrison Glen Carson. I had a scheduled c section for that morning. When we went in we thought it was going to be all fine and dandy. As they wheeled me in to the o.r the anesthesiologist started to put my epidural in and kept hitting my spine. It hurt so bad. I just looked at the nurse who I was hunched over and said do you mind if I cuddle with you. She just laughed at me and help me tighter to try and comfort me. Tad said he got a little teary eyed seeing the pain that I was in and watching them try to put the epidural in. He tried four times before my blood pressure dropped really really low and I started to pass out. All I remember was feeling very very hot and feeling very nauseated. The dc then told me that because my blood pressure went so low they had to put me completely under. This crushed me. I really wanted to see my baby born. With Madelyne they let Tad stay by my head for the whole thing. This time maybe because I was all the way under they had Tad stay in a corner and kept kicking him out of the room. So I guess it was kind of emotional for both of us. I was having a hard time with the whole birth thing anyways because of the birth of the twin. It was hard for me knowing that I was not going to be able to take that baby home with us and be a apart of our family. It was almost comforting knowing that I was still carrying the baby but knowing that they were going to take the baby out of me and do all sorts of tests on it was very hard for me. I do not think I will ever completely heal from it. I will always let out son know that he was a twin though and that Heavenly Father just had other plans for that sweet spirit. Waking up from the anesthesia was horrible. With Madelyne I was numb so I did not feel the cutting and tearing. With this delivery as soon as Garrison was born I woke up and the pain was excruciating. Tad said I was just moaning "give me more drugs". I would not recommend going under for a delivery. I had a really hard time waking up from the drugs and really did not get to bond with my baby until the next day. It was really hard and emotional for me. I am grateful for a wonderful husband who comforted him and held him while I was having problems waking up. My stay at the hospital was over all very good. I love Memorial the staff and nurses there are so great and so caring for there patients. Walking after a c section is murder but I was determined to do it. I remember with Madelyne they told me the sooner I got up the faster I would heal. I got up as soon as I could and like to think I am healing faster because of it. We are so grateful that Garrison is finally here. He is such a blessing in our lives. I am grateful that Heavenly Father blessed me and trusted me with these sweet babies that I have. I love my children so much and so grateful that I have a eternal family.

Birthday

Well we celebrated Tad's 29th birthday. He had a great time. This year he just wanted to go shopping for his birthday. So I did what I do best and took him on a well deserved shopping spree. He got some great shoes and a ton of clothes. It was like taking a kid to a candy store. The Saturday before his birthday we had a birthday party for him. We had cake and his favorite food enchiladas. I had a friend from church make his cake. he said it was the coolest birthday cake he has ever had. He is quite obsessed with the Mariners so I had her work her work her magic. I already have a idea for next years cake. It was great to have my whole family out at the house to celebrate his birthday. I am so thankful for family.

Easter

This Easter Madelyne was a lot more involved than she was last year. I purchased dye to dye the eggs but thought that it was probably not the greatest idea to let Madelyne help out with that project. So my sister and I dyed them the night before so that the Easter bunny could hide them that night. The next morning Madelyne had a suprise from the Easter Bunny she got a great basket filled with lots of goodies. She loved her little basket. I think her favorite thing in it was the bubbles. Watching her go outside and pick up eggs was quite entertaining. I laughed the whole time. I didn't know if she would quite get the whole concept of pick the egg up and put it in the basket. Well she did a little to much. She would pick up the egg and literally throw it as hard as she could into the basket. It was like a race around the yard to see how many eggs she could get. If she could have picked them all up at once I think that she would have. I don't think that she knew she was the only one out there picking up eggs. We didn't have church that day but listened to a great General Conference. It was just what I needed to hear that day. That evening my Grandparents came over and we had a really nice dinner. Earlier that day I got a little worried because I could not feel the baby move and I had been leaking some fluid. I called the family birthplace and the nurse told me to drink something really cold, lay on my side and if I had not felt the baby after about half hour to come in. Well I did it and it worked I was just a little frightened about my leaking of fluid. Later that night at dinner with all the Grandmas and Grandpas everyone started to freak out about the whole situation and insisted that I go to the hospital. I just wanted to eat pie. So before I could eat pie I was told to get in the car an that we are leaving. I got to the hospital they did a test to see if I was leaking fluid turns out I was not. I was dilated to a 2 and the baby was moving on the monitor. Turns out he was just running out of room in there and could not move as much as he used to. The nurse came in and said before I could go home she had to call the dc and see what he said I just started whinning and complaining. I really wanted to leave. All I could do was look at her and say " I just really want my pie". She started cracking up and left the room. My dad was out in the hall way and heard her tell the dc on the phone she just really wants to go home and have her Easter pie. She was a really nice lady as most of the nurses at the Family Birth place are. I was let home and had to pieces of delicious Easter pie. Just to be on the safe side though since it looked I could go into labor before my scheduled c section we called Tad and told him it was a good idea to come home. I got him a flight for the next day. Over all it was a great day and I still got pie.

Cooking is fun

Lately every time that I cook something or go to do something in the kitchen I hear a chair being pulled behind me. Maddie goes into the dining room and pulls a chair right up to the counter to help momma cook or bake. She loves to help out and well mostly sample the yummy treats that we whip up. I love being able to do this with her is is a lot of fun cooking in the kitchen with Maddie. We end up making more of a mess than anything but in the end it is worth it to see how fun Maddie is having and to just be able to spend time with her.

Olympics here we come!

Our little Maddie girl has been taking a gymnastics class for a couple of months now. It is so fun to watch her she is so funny and has so much fun. The class is called Tiny Tots and it is for 18 months to 3 year old's. The parent goes out with the child and helps the child go do everything. I was doing it with Madelyne for a while but I got to pregnant so my mom started to take Madelyne and I would just watch her. It got a little hard getting up and down really fast and running all over the place with a one year old. I could hardly just climb up and down the bleachers.

Maddie is quite talented in her gymnastics class and I am not just saying that because she is my daughter. Her teacher has commented to both my mom and I numerous times about her strength and size. Madelyne is really really short for her age she is just tiny but incredibly buff. Her instructors are amazed by her. She gets up on the bars and basically does all of the obstacle courses all by herself. She even does the really big balance beam all by herself with no one holding on to her.

So if she enjoys it as she gets older I think she is going to go really far with gymnastics. I am really excited for her. I just hope she enjoys it.

1-2-3

Well since I use this blog as more of a journal I decided to document this. When Madelyne get's into trouble I always start to count to three. So the other day I looked at her when she was being naughty and said one, Madelyne then said two... three all by herself. She then decided to laugh at me. I was so shocked that she had counted I could not even discipline her. I just had to start clapping and say YAY!!!!! So now she thinks if she counts when I do she will not get in trouble but a round of applause. This really is a lesson to me that she is listening to me and trying to learn.

Gender News

So we found out today what this little bundle of joy that I am carrying is. We are having a little boy! Tad was ecstatic he really wanted a little boy, I was happy and I honestly don't care what we are having I just was kind of hoping for a girl because we are already prepared for a girl. I have everything I need. I have NOTHING for a boy and I only have two months left to prepare for this little guy to come and meet us. So now I am going to just have to get a few things every week until the baby comes. the apt today was a mixed of emotions. I found out that my O.B is moving away so his partner is going to continue in my care, I guess that he is not going to see everybody just most of the high risk cases which a lot of Dc's wont even see me because of my condition. SO I am blessed that I have care here in Yakima. I also found out today that Tad is going to take two weeks paternity leave when the baby comes which I am so excited about. When Maddie was born he was only able to stay for a few hours and then he had to catch a flight back to Ca so it will be a lot different with some full time night help YAY!!! He does not know what he is in for. So now the plan is to do what I do best, SHOP!!!!!

Holiday's

So this year the holidays came and went. To me they went by way to fast. I love the holidays. I love spending time with my husband, going and picking out the perfect gifts, spending to much money of course. The holidays are just my favorite time of the year. I think that the one reason why I really love them lately is I actually get to see my husband for more than a couple of days straight and I feel like I am a married woman and not a single mother having some man come and visit sometimes. We spent Thanksgiving, Christmas at my parents house it was great. New Years we went out to my brothers for a little family party and sledding. I of course did not sled but I ate lot of food and watched people play wii. Thanksgiving Tad was only home a couple of days but it was nice to see him. Christmas was really the highlight. We got to go on dates while my parents babysat Madelyne, it felt awesome to be able to spend time together. Christmas morning was fun we all got up and did the normal routine this year Madelyne was more into her presents so it was a lot of fun watching her open presents. A couple of her highlight gifts were a new sled, car seat, and little chair. Tad and I went a little over board on each other and decided that since next Christmas we will have two bundle of joys it will be not such a dent in the checkbook if we only get each other one present a piece. I need to focus more on what the holidays are more about and not about spending a bunch of money on presents. I just really like to watch people open them and look at there reaction. I think since I have stated a family of my own the holidays are just completely different to me. When I was younger I could not even sleep Christmas Eve because I was so excited to open presents and see all my new additions. Now I cannot sleep because I am so excited to see my family open there presents. I guess I am still a kid in a way. Overall the holidays were a lot of fun and I am so thankful for them and my family. I am truly blessed with a amazing husband, wonderful parents, and the most precious daughter.

Halloween

So this year for Halloween I was not very organized. I did not feel good so I left it to my mom to take care of everything. Madelyne was a witch and was the cutest witch ever. We took her to our ward party and she had fun running around. She was not to fond of her hat but I thought that she was such a cute little witch. Tad basically chased her around the gym at the church and I watched. It was a lot of fun, and good to see good friends as well I cannot seem to find any pictures right now for the life of my but will post some as soon as I find my other card for my camera.

San Diego

So this blog actually should have been before my pregnancy blog my bad. The week before Tad and I found out we were expecting Tad took me to San Diego to celebrate my birthday. We had so much fun! We went to Sea World and the Zoo and just had fun traveling around. Sea world was definitely the highlight of the trip. I did not realize everything that is there. It was so much fun watching all the different shows and seeing the wildlife. Just a hint of advice when they say "splash zone" at the shows they really mean it. We sat at the back of the splash zone in the shows and thought that we would be ok.. Nope were so soaked at the end of each show, the whether was so warm though it honestly felt really good. Tad took Madelyne to the little section where there are kiddie rides and took Madelyne on the rides. I am not sure who had more fun or who was the kid here Maddie or Tad. I think the highlight of Sea World was the Shamu show, at the beginning of it they have anybody in the military stand up and give them a thank you. Everyone started clapping and I just sat there so proud of my husband and the survive that he has given this country. I started bawling like a baby. This should have been my first clue that I was pregnant. The next day we went to the Zoo my stupid self thought we could get it done in one day and still have time to go and see some other things around San Diego errr WRONG!!!!! We didn't even get through the whole Zoo in the day that Zoo is so amazing they have everything. I got to feed a giraffe which was very cool and I learned a lot of new animals as well. Madelyne enjoyed looking at all the animals, but fell asleep for a lot of it. Word of advice when going there wear tennis shoes. The place is huge and you will be walking all over the place. We also found out that Madelyne is allergic to goats. They have a petting zoo there for little kids and madelyne went nuts playing with the animals. After she was done like a good parent I took her over to the washing station and washed her hands ect. About 2-5 min later I realized that she had hives everywhere and her eyes were swelling shut. Of course I panicked but Tad went and got some baby benydryl and made everything all better. I would really recommend going down there it was so much fun and I cant wait to go back!

Knocked up

So Tad and I found out that we were expecting in September of 2009. We both could not be more thrilled to add to our growing family. As soon as the excitement set in reality also set in we knew it would not be long until I became very sick and would have to be under 24 hr care. I have horrible pregnancies and a condition known as hyperemisis. I am usually in the hospital for a lot of my pregnancy and have to have a pic line placed in my arm that travels up to right above my heart. I eat and take medicine through this tube. It was about a week after we found out that I became very sick and Tad was taking me to the E.R on a regular basis. We both knew that I had to go home especially with his work schedule. The closest facility that I would be able to go to to receive my infusion care in Loma Linda which is not a drive I want to make everyday. My mom came down a couple of days later and we began our trip back to Wa so that she could take care of Madelyne and myself. I was very worried about the 21+ hr drive home with a 1 year old, but Madelyne did so good I was so proud of her. We did the trip in a couple of days and I am so thankful for dvd players and elmo. Before I left my testimony of the priesthood was really strengthened. Tad gave me a blessing to help me with the trip home. Before we started our trip I had mentioned to my mom that I did not think that I was going to make it barfing every ten minutes in a car for 21+ hrs just did not seem like a good idea. In the blessing my husband gave me he blessed me that I would make it home comfortably. Just that happened the whole ride home I only threw up one time. I am so thankful for a wonderful husband who holds the priesthood. My testimony sure was strengthened during that blessing and the experience. I am thankful for such a wonderful heavenly father. On a lighter note I kid you not as soon as we got to Yakima I got incredibly sick and started vomiting like crazy. The hospital admitted me right away because they could not control and and I was so dehydrated. I had a ultrasound the next week and found out that we were carrying twins! I could not have been more overjoyed because the reality had set in that I would not be able to have anymore children physically after I had these babies. The pregnancy was just going horrible. They finally got me stable enough to get home and I was on TPN which was feeding me through a pump at home. My amazing mother would change my bag everyday and still gets my medicine for me everyday. There is no way that I would be able to get through this pregnancy with out my mom. She is truly a saint. When I was about 18 -19 weeks a long I went in for a apt and found out that one of my little babies heart had stopped beating. Tad had thankfully flown in the night before to go to the apt with me. We were both devastated all we could do was cry our eyes out and ask heavenly father to please help us understand why this spirit would not be coming to our family. It really was a time and still is that I have had to rely on heavenly father to understand and I might never. Tad and I both just know that heavenly father has another plan for this spirit. I will still deliver this little baby and say my good byes why we welcome another one. The dr just said that either one of the twins was taking all the nutrients, or that my condition is what affected it. I am know about 24 weeks pregnant and doing quite well. I am still very tired all the time and can't do much I am feeling a lot better. Memorial hospital has told me that I am the sickest pregnant girl that they have ever had. I joke with them every week when I go up there and tell them to name the maternity floor after me or something. I still do not know the sex of the rd yet the cord is in the way. I am getting quite impatient though. Three months and counting!!!!!!

Poor pathetic blog!

So I have not updated our blog in forever a lot has been going on so instead of one huge blog I am just going to do a bunch of mini blogs to update what is going on in our lives over the next couple of days. I cannot do it all at once with a very rambunctious 18 mo old.