Knocked up

So Tad and I found out that we were expecting in September of 2009. We both could not be more thrilled to add to our growing family. As soon as the excitement set in reality also set in we knew it would not be long until I became very sick and would have to be under 24 hr care. I have horrible pregnancies and a condition known as hyperemisis. I am usually in the hospital for a lot of my pregnancy and have to have a pic line placed in my arm that travels up to right above my heart. I eat and take medicine through this tube. It was about a week after we found out that I became very sick and Tad was taking me to the E.R on a regular basis. We both knew that I had to go home especially with his work schedule. The closest facility that I would be able to go to to receive my infusion care in Loma Linda which is not a drive I want to make everyday. My mom came down a couple of days later and we began our trip back to Wa so that she could take care of Madelyne and myself. I was very worried about the 21+ hr drive home with a 1 year old, but Madelyne did so good I was so proud of her. We did the trip in a couple of days and I am so thankful for dvd players and elmo. Before I left my testimony of the priesthood was really strengthened. Tad gave me a blessing to help me with the trip home. Before we started our trip I had mentioned to my mom that I did not think that I was going to make it barfing every ten minutes in a car for 21+ hrs just did not seem like a good idea. In the blessing my husband gave me he blessed me that I would make it home comfortably. Just that happened the whole ride home I only threw up one time. I am so thankful for a wonderful husband who holds the priesthood. My testimony sure was strengthened during that blessing and the experience. I am thankful for such a wonderful heavenly father. On a lighter note I kid you not as soon as we got to Yakima I got incredibly sick and started vomiting like crazy. The hospital admitted me right away because they could not control and and I was so dehydrated. I had a ultrasound the next week and found out that we were carrying twins! I could not have been more overjoyed because the reality had set in that I would not be able to have anymore children physically after I had these babies. The pregnancy was just going horrible. They finally got me stable enough to get home and I was on TPN which was feeding me through a pump at home. My amazing mother would change my bag everyday and still gets my medicine for me everyday. There is no way that I would be able to get through this pregnancy with out my mom. She is truly a saint. When I was about 18 -19 weeks a long I went in for a apt and found out that one of my little babies heart had stopped beating. Tad had thankfully flown in the night before to go to the apt with me. We were both devastated all we could do was cry our eyes out and ask heavenly father to please help us understand why this spirit would not be coming to our family. It really was a time and still is that I have had to rely on heavenly father to understand and I might never. Tad and I both just know that heavenly father has another plan for this spirit. I will still deliver this little baby and say my good byes why we welcome another one. The dr just said that either one of the twins was taking all the nutrients, or that my condition is what affected it. I am know about 24 weeks pregnant and doing quite well. I am still very tired all the time and can't do much I am feeling a lot better. Memorial hospital has told me that I am the sickest pregnant girl that they have ever had. I joke with them every week when I go up there and tell them to name the maternity floor after me or something. I still do not know the sex of the rd yet the cord is in the way. I am getting quite impatient though. Three months and counting!!!!!!